Thursday, September 30, 2010 . 9/30/2010 02:29:00 PM

That monthly time of the month tend to trigger stupid reactions out of me. Stupid reactions that include pointless crying, ferocious tempers, and terrible mood swings. 

Doesn't help that I cried at parts of a movie that doesn't require crying (or it's still sad, but my friends aren't even tearing).

Doesn't help that I cried last night because I'm so tired of working and studying and worrying about money at the same time. Which rendered me unable to sleep.

DOESN'T HELP THAT A GROUP-MATE HAD TO WORK FOR AN EXTRA DAY AND WE HAD TO CHANGE THE MEETING TIME AGAIN!!

And it doesn't help with the news of my father attempting to fly back here is looming in this family. And I have to use my precious bursary, that's supposed to last me for months of allowance, to get him a ticket...

I'm trying not to hate my life. I want to love my life. I do love my life in some ways. In my mind, there's a battle between love and hate. It's that dramatic. 

Right now, it's just trying to go through life as normally as before. Hanging out with friends are before. Fooling around with my brothers to keep the spirits up. And talking to people to... make myself happy. 

'Cause when I'm alone, I sink into the bottomless pit of depression.