Saturday, May 8, 2010 . 5/08/2010 11:43:00 PM

It's no secret I have a crush on someone. It's just a secret on who it is. Apparently, I'm so discreet about it that almost everybody don't know who that lucky/unlucky person is, unless I told them myself, which only include my best friends, since they don't really know that person. Or a lucky guess. 

Apparently, the finale of almost all my crush is hatred for them. Except for the very first one, who's one of my greatest friends. Hopefully this doesn't happen for the latest one, since this person is such a nice person. 

I think my best friends were very shocked by this choice, since I've always emphasized on this criteria. Oh wells. They're getting back at me on this fact. 

Well, this crush may never last. My priorities are set, and my studies will be higher than relationships. I will graduate before looking out for love, which I don't know whether I might give. It's complicated. 

Somehow, I have this philosophy. I'll much rather fall out of love than fall too hard in love. I'm not too sure why I set this philosophy (well, it's not exactly one either). I'm probably too disappointed with myself and love that unconsciously (yet consciously) I'm trying to form a barrier between myself and the outside world. It's complicated. 

Back to main topic: the crush. It may never come to fruit, since I feel that this person is in love with another person. It's a woman's intuition. And lots of fb hints. However, it never stopped my from admiring this person from afar, even if it does hurt. Quite a bit. Hope is there though. It's complicated. 

Love is complicated. So is a crush.