Tuesday, February 9, 2010 . 2/09/2010 11:24:00 PM

I am so freaking tired, I don't think I might be able to write a good song entry this time. 

I don't know why, but today, I missed my piano. Music is a big part of my life, and to be away from my music is like... indescribable! I just missed creating funny melodies on my oh-so-black piano, and fitting funny lyrics to it. And playing songs I know. And figuring out songs on my own too. I admit I'm not a good pianist, but there's a fun factor for me to it. Keyboard just isn't as good as a piano. Plus, in my house, the keyboard is so inaccessible. 

Currently, writing song lyrics is a pastime. My classmates laughed at me, but I think I shall just carry on. It's something I really like and proud of. 

Okay, back to my playlist of unrequited love songs. 

Love is a funny little illogical thing. It's a source of joy, sadness, disappointment, anger, jealousy, satisfaction and probably many many more. More than often, the heart rules over the head, and many funny (and not so funny) things happen.

When I graduated from secondary school and my friends went to JC (well, most of them did), one by one they started getting boyfriends. No offence, but when the crying started, sometimes, I wondered why they had to endure certain stuff for their boys. Really, they're my best friends, yet they were sooooooo devoted to their boyfriends. I guess I didn't like myself then. I was a terrible green-eye monster. 

Then I had to fall really really hard for a guy who probably will NEVER notice me. And my oh-so-great classmates probably revealed this fact to him by staring at him and whispering and nudging when he's nearby. Yeah, and he has a girlfriend. No chance at all. But I was head-over-heels in love then (Okay, maybe now "in love" wouldn't be a good term. Infatuated would be better). Then I understood the feeling. That and the many stories I hear from my fellow pandas and other besties. 

AND THEN, I think I reached a point of time I really really hate guys (not including my brothers). I shall not state reasons here, since it's rather dangerous. Yeah, I really hated them, and I think, even now, there is this little animosity between me and the male species in particular. I don't know whether I'll see them in a better light now though.

I guess I gained a better understanding in BGRs and the need not to pursue them now. I'm probably the only girl I know who knows I'm not ready for a relationship, although I'm still recklessly being infatuated, even if I don't really have that much love for them. 

Quote of the day: "Don't laugh! It's a girl's thing!" Hilarious!

I shall write my song entry for the playlist tomorrow morning. Provided I'm done with my report...